What can I tell you about myself that would grab your attention…….?

I wish I could tell you that I got tired of being “sick and tired” as my trainer would say, but honestly it was the fact that for the first time in years I was feeling my weight. At the age of 34 I weigh 286 lbs. I have always been athletic and at my “size” I was playing sports and running half marathons. Recently that walk felt a little harder and that energy to do a little bit more was not there.

I have always been up and down on the scale. I have been an on and off again member of Weight Watchers since I was old enough to join; I have cycled through carbs and did the south beach routine. I spent a week at the biggest loser resort and last year I considered the weight loss surgeries. Every trainer that I have met says that they are going to be the one to “change me”; They could see it now.  But guess what I think I found the trainer that might just do that. So far, I have trained with him for two and a half months and the journey is slow, but I’m changing. This is me… the good, the bad, and the progress.

I never would have thought that my first blog ever would be about suicide awareness, but this is what these blogs are about…. healthy in progress; Healthy body, Healthy mind, healthy life. I have this nice paragraph starting of a blog in a word document that has been sitting for about two weeks. This blog will be short and simple and will not take me two weeks.

As a health care professional, I’ve seen a video produced by the Cleveland clinic several times, it’s almost like that math movie that you have to watch in high school. It goes through the hospital with statements next to people stating reasons why they are there; a mother and child walking “husband terminally ill, visiting dad” or a new dad “getting to say hello for the first time” I think about that video all the time because my point is you don’t know what someone is going through.

Anyone can fake a smile, while dying on the inside.  If you are someone in need, please reach out for help. Understand that no problem is big enough with the help of family and friends.

Using the words of Ellen DeGeneres “Be kind to one another” including yourself.